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« on: January 04, 2009, 11:38:30 AM »

Date originally posted at Kansas: December 3, 2003
Replies: 37
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Thank God in heaven...it's finally done.  I've called it the fic from hell, but now that it's finished I'm a little fonder of it. *g*  Much thanks to ac, crystalmoon and shipsister and the hubby for their excellant comments and support. You guys helped me enormously.

Rated: R
Setting: Just after BT
Disclaimer: Not mine


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REMEMBER ME



I’m so afraid to love you
But more afraid to lose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness
Deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

And I will remember you, will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories
(Sarah McLachlan)



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D’Argo sighed with relief as he watched the pod settle to the floor. And he laughed as the small gray woman suddenly appeared and flung herself through the air straight at him.

"Welcome back." He whirled them around, tenkas flying, as he enveloped the small body in his arms, careful not to hurt her.  Planting a kiss on her upturned lips he said. "Did you have any trouble?" His voice was a deep rumble of concern.

The white hair floated around the pixie face as it lifted to look at him. Her black eyes took his breath away as they had always done. Thank Bo’len that she could see at last. The blindness had lasted so long this time that they had almost given up. They had been in search of a diagnosan when her sight began to return. They would have to wait to find out if there was a way to stop the blindness.  It had been a weeken since John and Aeryn had died and they were getting closer to their prey.

"Nah. Those frellnicks wouldn't know their eema from a ditch on Earth." She lightly flicked her tongue to his nose. His breath caught and he held her away before he forgot what they came for.

"And...?"

"And what?"

The twinkle was back in her eyes in spite of the sorrow he knew was always there. Always there in both of them. There was only one reason she'd be twinkling... she had found out something. He gave a warning rumble.

"Chiana."

"Oh, you want to know what they said." She gave him another quick kiss and danced away. "Well, at..at first they didn't know anything. And I almost believed 'em. I mean, they sounded as stupid as they looked, and they looked pretty stupid. Really, it was hard to believe they could know anything at all, but I didn't give up. And in the end it was easy. All I had to do was whisper a few words in the techs ear and he told me almost everything he knew." She gave him a big grin.

D'Argo could feel the jealous blood pounding in his veins. He took a deep breath and counted as John had taught him.  "And what did you whisper to make him talk to you?"

Chiana must have seen the struggle going on inside him because she moved closer and gave his chest a reassuring pat as she whispered in his ear.

"All I said was that I would give him what he wanted." At his indrawn breath she giggled.

"And he wanted...currency!"

D'Argo shook his head. "Currency? Like...krindars?" Clearly that wasn't what he had been expecting.

"No. It was something called Po’Tunks. Whatever that is. Have you ever heard of Po’Tunks?”

He grimaced, shaking his head.  When had he lost control of the conversation? A better question would be had he ever had control in a conversation with Chi?

"Nevermind. Just tell me what he said."

Her lips tightened, but she let it go. She figured she had that coming and they had more important things to worry about.

"Okay, here's the thing. The guys in the ships? They're called the Lothra. Nobody on this planet really knows who they are just that they've always been here. They appear out of nowhere and then they just...just disappear. Sometimes with people. Mostly new people."

"Noranti. That witch! She said she knew this planet! She couldn't tell us this before we sat there floating helpless in the water like a dead baccrat? Frell." He started pacing. "We were sitting birds waiting to be plucked." He stopped in front of her. "What else did they tell you?"

"He said he didn't know anything else, at least he didn't unless I..." She darted a sly look at him and shrugged her shoulders. "…and…and… of course that was out of the question. I told him he could go fr….”

“Chiana.”
She hurried on. "So I hid in a plant and listened to them talking .... what?"

"You hid in a plant?"

"Well, yeah.  It was amazing. It was right there next to the table and it had these huge blue blooms with some kind of fellip in the middle that tasted like...like… chicken! That's it. Chicken. It was even bigger than me and they said it had already eaten so I figured I'd be safe enough..."

"Chiana!"

"Okay, okay, I’m getting to it. It seems like these people have been here a long time, but I don't think anyone knows for sure where the ships come from, just that they have always been here. I think they're scared of them. Probably the only smart thought they have. They sure as hezmana aren't going to try and find them, but I did find out that the ships always come from the North and I heard them mention some place. Ith'ra they called it. Seemed like a big thing, maybe a mountain or a city.

"Did they say anything about why they would kill John and Aeryn with no warning?" For an instant he saw their images, crumbling like dust, and he felt the wild burning anger inside him screaming to be let loose, but he was in control of himself for now. When he found the murdering bastards it would be a different story.

"Nope. Nothing. So, I figure there's only one thing to do."

“Yeah.”

"Go North." They said in unison.

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The sounds penetrated the comfortable darkness of his mind slowly at first. The low hum of a distant engine, the soft hiss of air flowing nearby, the rustle of clothes as someone walked by, his own breathing, growing more labored as consciousness returned. Feelings came next. The feel of cloth against him, the rough fabric under his cheek, the coolness of the air traveling over his body.

His body!

He couldn't remember why that thought was so scary, but his eyes opened against his will, unable to remain in the warm cocoon of nothingness any longer. Where the hell was he? He lifted his head and the pain pierced his brain. God. What was wrong with him? He stayed still for a moment and the pain passed leaving him panting and weak.

When his head stopped spinning he could see he was in a large room with smooth dark walls and just the minimum amount of furnishings. The bed he was laying on mirrored another on the opposite side of the room and what looked like a basin was repeated as well. Had he ever seen this room before? Surely he would remember if he knew this place?

Thoughts began to bubble to the surface now, pictures flashing through his mind like a kaleidoscope as memories broke through and filled him. Oh, no. Oh, God, what was happening to him? What was he doing here? Wherever it was he knew he had to leave.  He moved a leg close to the edge of the bed to get up and then stopped.

“What the hell?”  He pulled the covers up and looked down not sure what to expect, but the whole, healthy and purely naked body he saw was not it.

"Shit!" He tried not to panic. Then he remembered.

Aeryn.

Where was she? He still wasn't sure what had happened, but the one thing that came through his muddled brain loud and clear was he had to find Aeryn. What had happened to her? He couldn't live if anything happened to her, that he was sure of. But was he alive? He wasn't supposed to be, he was almost sure of that. He didn't know where he was or what had happened, but he'd figure that out later. Right now he had to find her.

He swung his feet over the side of the bed and the room swam again. "Oh, man!" His hands held his head until the room settled down once more. He remembered then the sound of someone walking near him. Someone else was here. They would know where Aeryn was.

"Hey!" He'd learned his lesson and rose slowly dragging the blanket with him. "Is anybody out there?!" He thought he saw movement outside the doorway, but no one came. He moved closer to the opening. "Hello! Somebody. Come here and face me damn it. What have you done with Aeryn?! I know you're there, you mother..."

"John?"

The soft word brought him up quickly and he looked around the room. Where...?  “Aeryn?”


There. He saw her slim body unfold itself from the other side of the far bed, a piece of metal in her hand. The first thing he noticed was that she too was naked. The second was that she hadn't bothered with the sheet. Her long dark hair fanned around her body parting to give him enticing peeks at smooth flesh and dusky nipples as she walked towards him. Even as confused as he was, that fact had his body stirring as he stared at her.

“Aeryn.  Are you all right?”

Her voice was steady as she replied. “I’m fine. What about you?”

He thought about it. “Besides the mother of all  Excedrin headaches I think I’m okay.”

They met in the middle of the room. He was denches away from touching her, holding her, when he felt the barrier between them. Invisible, it was warm and soft, but it didn't move or allow him to penetrate it. He stretched out a hand and could almost touch her. Almost.

“Don’t bother. There’s some kind of shield separating the room.  I’ve already tried to get around it. Nothing seems to work.”  Her fingers continued to press at the invisible barrier. “Whoever has us doesn’t want us...together.”  They stood there for a moment their eyes roaming over each other.

Suddenly John frowned. “What have you done to your hair?”

“What?” Her puzzled look echoed her words.

“It’s...”  It was different. Too different. She couldn’t have grown her hair that long so quickly. Something was definitely wrong with this picture.  He’d finally lost it. He felt the first stirrings of panic as he began to remember.

He dropped to the floor cross legged and looked down.

”I'm in hell aren't I?” He shook his head sadly.  “I can't believe this. I was so sure I’d end up in heaven or well, maybe just nothing. I never really believed in hell you know.” He looked up at Aeryn. “I tried to be a good person, helped elderly ladies cross the road, rescued damsels in distress, saved billions of lives. I guess that wasn’t good enough…”

She frowned. “John? What the frell are you talking about?”

She was looking at him like he’d lost his mind. Had he? Was that an option?

She motioned with her hand. “Come on, get up. We’ve got to find a way out of here and you sitting there babbling is not helping.”  When he didn’t move she crouched down to kneel in front of him and turned a suddenly uncertain smile on him. “Hey.”

He stared into her eyes and he felt sweat gathering on his face. He felt his body burning even though the room was cool.

“Aeryn?” It was a plea for help though he hadn’t meant to say anything.

She cocked her head to one side, looking at him intently. Then stood up quickly.

“You’re sick. You need a doctor.” She raised her voice. “We need a doctor!”

“No, wait! Aeryn. I’m not sick. Or at least I don’t think I am. Not that way. Just….come here.” He motion her to sit again.

She came back slowly, unsure what to do.

"Sit. Please." Before she could start to bend he pleaded with her. "But get a sheet or something! As much as I enjoy you in your birthday suit, it's..." He couldn't stop the grin. "...distracting."

When she was covered and seated he took a deep breath and looked at her for a moment before asking "Where are we?"

"Now that's a good question. I believe from what I've heard that we are underground. Possibly still on Qujaga. I'm not sure how long we've been here since they took us from the boat. I've been conscious for a few days. They’ve examined us.  They said you would be fine, that it was just the effect of the Neutralizer on your alien physiology."

She raised her hand to press it against the barrier between them. "Did they lie? Are you sick? What's wrong?"

"Wrong? What's wrong is I'm not supposed to be here, Aeryn. I should be dead. Am I dead? You would tell me if I was dead wouldn't you?" He was trembling now; he could still feel his body burning, the bile rising in his throat as he tried to swallow. What was happening to him?

"John. You’re not dead. I know you thought we were going to die, we both did, but I assure you they only transported us here." She looked around. "Where ever here is, and we are both very much alive. And the baby. They said the baby is fine too." She smiled at him reassuringly.

Oh, God. Oh, God. The baby? His muscles went weak and the room swam. Suck it up John, you can't pass out now. If this wasn't a dream, if it wasn't hell, he needed to think. And think hard.

"Aeryn?"

She raised a quizzical eyebrow.

His world was reeling, but he had to ask. "What is the last thing you remember? Before we got here, that is."
         
She smiled then, the wide open smile that always sent his heart tripping.

"Well, you had just asked me to marry you and I told you about the baby and then the ship flew over and the next thing I knew we were here." She must have seen something in his eyes because her smiled faltered then and grew worried again. "What is the last thing you remember?"

Pain flashed across his face and he licked dry lips trying to make the words easier to say. They came in a whisper anyway.

"Aeryn. The last thing I remember is you sitting next to me crying. You pulled a blanket over me and you kissed me.  And I said ‘don’t worry about me, I’ve never felt better.’ Just before I died."


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“This has to be it. There’s nothing else for a hundred metres in any direction.”

The small brown land mass grew larger and larger till it filled the viewscreen as Lo’La drew closer. D'Argo gave the ship the order to slow down and put them in a holding pattern over the Island.  It was a barren wasteland, but it was the only land there was. Something had to be down there.

“Bo’lak! Nah Treek!” He turned to Chiana after giving the order. “There. It will take a while to scan the area and get an idea of what is down there.” He looked down at the harsh land below them.

Chiana's rested her chin on D'Argo's shoulder as she looked too.

"What now?"

"Now, we find out who or what killed John and Aeryn."

"And then what?"
D’Argo heaved a sigh. ”Then we blow them up.”

Chiana gave him a look he’d seen too many times. “What? Uh... don't we want to talk to them first? Find out why they...you know.”

”Killed them?”

”Yeah”

”No.”

”No what?”

”No, we don't need to find out why they killed them. It's enough to know they did. And I’m not going to give them the opportunity to do the same thing to us. Once we're sure it’s them I will destroy them.”

She nuzzled his neck for a microt. ”Don’t get me wrong. I’m as much for destroying things as the next person. But, I still think we should talk to them. There had to be some reason for...you know.”

”Chiana. Stop. You didn't see it, I did. One microt they were so happy. And then they were dust. They deserved more than that. They were our friends. More than friends. They were family. Vengeance is demanded. It is a matter of honor.”

She thought about it for a microt. ”Yeah, well, when you put it that way.” She leaned closer and her breath tickled his cheek.  “Give ‘em everything you’ve got.”


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She was looking at him blankly as though she were made of stone, but her hand trembled and gave lie to that idea.

“Aeryn.  I know how this sounds.…”

“It’s not possible.”

“I know…”

“Who told you what happened? Was it Rygel? Crais? We were supposed to be alone. No one knew…” She bit her bottom lip.

“No one told me anything. Aeryn…”

“No. Don’t do this. Not now.”  Her eyes were shining with unshed tears, but she never blinked and she never stopped looking at him.

“I remember…”

“You are John Crichton.” She stood up then, pulled the sheet tighter, and began to pace. “You were on the boat, you asked me to marry you, and you gave me a ring.” She stopped and faced him.  “You know if this is some kind of joke it isn’t funny. And if you don’t want to marry me, that’s fine, you don’t have to make me angry.   You don’t have to do this.” A tear escaped, unnoticed. “Please don’t do this.”

It was a painful whisper so low that he barely caught it.

John stood to face her. “Aeryn. I don’t want to hurt you, but I don’t know what’s happening here. I shouldn’t be here. I’m not even sure I really am here. All I know is what I remember and that was…God!” He rubbed his hands over his face. “You know I’ve been once or twice screwed since I got to this place, but this...”

“You’re a bioloid aren’t you?”

“I’m a what?!”

“That’s it! Why didn’t I think of that before?” She began pacing again. “They’ve sent you here to..to..what? What did they send you here for? To take me back?” Her voice rose. “Or maybe they didn’t send you at all. Maybe I never left Katratzi. Maybe I’m still back there and they’re messing with my mind!” She was shaking now.

“Aeryn, calm down. You’re losing me here. What is a bioloid?”

She looked at him sharply. “Okay, you say you’re John Crichton. Prove it.”

“How?”

She considered. “Cut yourself.”

“Cut myself? Aeryn, this is nuts!”

“Ah, ha!”

“Ah, ha what? You think cutting myself is going to prove something?”  He looked down at his body remembering that he shouldn’t be here in the first place. “Well, hell. Maybe it will prove something.” Now it was his turn to move around the room. 

His half whispered aside “maybe it’ll prove I’m an idiot” made her mouth twitch before she could help herself.

Well, if he was going to do it he should get it over with. He gazed helplessly around him looking for something to use, but nothing was readily apparent.  Aeryn, being the ever helpful mate that she was, gave him a clue.

“Try under your bed. At the top, there’s a small metal piece that you can just break off.”

“Gee, thanks.” He dropped down and scooted under the bed looking. “Okay.” The sound of metal snapping broke the silence. Scrambling to his feet he held up his prize.  “Got it.”

“All right. So do it.”

John looked at the jagged piece of metal he held in his hands. “You know, this will probably kill me again. It’ll get infected and then gangrene will set in and before you know it they’ll cut off my arm and….”

She raised her eyebrow.

“Right. Just do it.” He looked from the metal to his arm again and winced. “Okay, John, be all that you can be.” He brought the sharp edge to his forearm and pressed lightly. “Oh man, this is really gonna hurt.” His lips drew back in a grimace as the skin broke. “Ah! God! I knew it! Why does everything have to hurt?!” He threw down the metal with a clang and held out his arm. They both watched as blood flowed from the small incision down his arm.

And he watched helplessly as Aeryn slid down into a boneless heap, unconscious.


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“There!” D’Argo pointed to the tiny blips on the hologram. “Most of the life forms are centered in this area.”

Chiana moved into the seat beside him and watched the blips with interest. “So, how do we know these are the frellnicks who did it?”

He waved his hand and uttered a sharp command. A schematic appeared and the outline of a plane was clearly visable.

“Hey that looks just like the ship that Pilot...”

“Exactly.” His mouth tightened into a grim line. “It’s them all right. Now I just need to figure out the best way to destroy them.”

“Can’t you just fire on the ground?”

D’Argo sighed. “There is some type of force field surrounding the complex. I am not sure if Lo’la’s weapons can destroy it.”

“But...”

“Shhh....”  He studied the scene before him carefully. And then found what he was looking for. “Perhaps if I target that section there....”

“What? You have a plan?” At his nod she gave him a quick grin and a light punch to the arm. “You figured that out quick. See, Crichton’s not the only one who can...” Her smile faded. “I mean...”

“It’s okay, Chiana. They will not be forgotten.”

“I know.” Her face was a solemn as his as she leaned over and kissed him softly. “So let’s do this.”

“Right.  Retak no don Weeer!”


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She was awake thank God. Someone, he was pretty sure it was Frankenstein, had come in and laid her on the bed running an instrument over her and completely ignoring the deranged human yelling at him from the other side of the room. He had left as quickly as he came and John had died a thousand more times before Aeryn had moved again. It hadn’t taken long for her to recover once they were alone, but John’s could still see her lying there on the floor, he unable to help her.

Aeryn was looking at him intently now from the far side of the room.  Her back was to the wall where she sat on the bed.

“Are you okay?”

She nodded. They were silent a long time before she finally broke the quiet.

“What else do you remember? Before you…” Her hands waved, not able to give voice to what had happened to him.

“How far back? When I first got here? You kicked my butt, I remember that.”

“No. Later. After the dead Leviathan.”

“Oh. You mean after I got…you know…him and me?”

She nodded.

“Where is the son of a bitch anyway?” He had a thought. “Did…did Stark give him the message?”

She smiled like her heart was breaking. “Yes. He got the message.”

“So. You went back to him.” He gave a strangled laugh. “I knew you wouldn’t be able to resist me for long.”  He knew better than to ask. He did anyway even though the words were forced out of him.  “Umm…how…how long….?”

Somehow she knew what he meant. He read remembered pain in her eyes when she said “You were right. It took time.”

He closed his eyes. He had known it wouldn’t be easy for her.

She moved then and came to middle of the room. She sat down in front of him, searching his face like she had never seen it before, looking for an answer to the impossible.  She studied the straight nose, the soft full lips, the smooth forehead.  She blinked.

“There’s no scar.”

“Huh?” He remembered then and automatically lifted a hand to his left temple. Smooth. Ah frell. “But..”

She saw the panic in his face. “It’s okay.” She soothed him.  “There’s an explanation.” She sighed. “We just have to think of it.”

“Maybe I’m dreaming? Maybe you’re dreaming?”

“I don’t think so.” She shook her head. “No, this is real. Therefore there must be a real explana...” Her eyes narrowed and a thought occurred to her. “Frell!”

“What? What frell?!”

“The mask.”

“The mask?”

“You gave Stark a message, but you gave him more than that. You gave him memories.” Sadness was there in her gaze before it hardened again.  “And there was a game.”

“A game?” He was beginning to sound like a parrot.

“Yes. A holo game.  Stark was responsible for it. He took the memories you gave him on Talyn and sold them to a gamemaker. John was trapped inside the game for a while and …things happened.  Like they so often do.” They smiled at each other. Quick grins that said they knew all about things happening.  “Maybe it somehow gave his memories to you. Or your memories to him…” her voice trailed off.

It was hard to take in. Stark had sold his memories? His intimate thoughts and dreams out on public display?  There was one thing he was certain of though. “Stark! I’m going to kill the bastard!” He punched the air with his fist. “But if this is his body then why don’t I have his memories?”

“I don’t know. You were fine on Moya. The only thing that changed was…wait a microt! Perhaps it has something to do with how we got here.  You were out for two solar days longer than I was. Before you woke up the doctor told me that we had been reconstituted. Whatever the frell that means. Maybe when they brought us back they messed up something.”

“My head! They messed with my head!” He dropped said head in his hands and moaned. “Why do they always have to mess with my head!”  He was still for a long time before he looked up again into her eyes. “I’m not really me am I? I’m him.” He laughed softly. “Maybe I really am in hell.”


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They were still looking at one another when the first sounds came. The rumbling seemed far away, but the fact that the floor shook was not comforting.

"What the f...?"

A shower of sparks erupted near the door and suddenly the faint hum that he had woke up to was gone leaving the room feeling strangely empty. His eyes caught Aeryn's and they both reached out at the same time.

The barrier was gone.

He didn't remember moving, but she was in his arms and he was holding on to her as if his life depended on it. And maybe it did. He felt like it did. The sheets fell away and God, she felt so good, her arms around his waist, her breasts were soft pressed against his chest, her hair tickling his nose. He couldn't have moved if Scorpy had walked in with Bracca yapping at his heels. She was the only sane thing in his universe. Always had been.
   
"Aeryn." He whispered into her hair. He wouldn't let her go again.

The walls shook once more and he pulled away slightly. "I think we should get out of here."

Her head came up and she nodded. She was so close he could already taste her, but there was no time, no time. They grabbed the sheets and headed for the door. He started to go left as she went right. One look and he changed directions heading down the right corridor with her. He'd learned a long time ago that in battle he should follow her lead. She was annoyingly right.

Whoever their captors were they were in a state of confusion now.  John saw several of their captors scurrying down the hallway before cornering an unfortunate couple that came around the corner at just the right time. Or wrong time depending on your point of view.  The two aliens shrieked in alarm when they saw the former captives and cowered back against the wall as John and Aeryn neared.

The odd thing was they didn't even have to fight to achieve their objective and microts later they were striding down the halls clothed in the aliens’ uniforms. The stiff material wasn't as comfortable as their own clothes and the fit was tight, but it beat the hell out of flapping in the breeze.

They hadn’t gone far before Aeryn pulled him back and peered around a corner. The corridor dead ended, but it looked like they had reached what might pass for a command center of some kind. Machinery lined the walls and a large glowing sphere held court in the center of the room. The slow deliberate speech of their jailors was slowly gaining speed as their hands flew over the control panels.

"We cannot stop them. Contamination is imminent. This is your fault Meethon. There is now only one thing to do. We need the two new specimens."

“It is too late. Power to the containment systems has been severed Sorak. Interior shields are down and they are no longer in their quarters.”

The Lothran’s looked at each other helplessly as sounds from the explosions seemed to get closer.

John pulled back and looked at Aeryn.

"Aeryn? Have you noticed something funny?” He whispered.

“Funny?”

“Not funny, ha ha, but just...funny.” His sharp gaze went from alien to alien.  “None of these bad guys seem to have any weapons. The guy that came in to take care of you. The two in the hall. These guys. Did you see any while I was out earlier?"

She shook her head. "No, nothing. But surely..."

"You know, I’m gonna make a bet that says they don't have any weapons." His brow crinkled in thought. "Obviously they can transport and they can contain...like the force field in the room, but I’ll bet they can't fight." He moved to go around her and she put a hand out to stop him.

"And if you're wrong?"

"Well, there only one way to find out." He lifted a hand to stroke her cheek. "You stay here, just in case."

And he stepped around her and entered the room.

"Hello gentlemen! I'm assuming there aren't any ladies present? It's so hard to tell these days." High pitched squeals splintered the air as most of the occupants moved as far away from him as possible. John watched as their heads split open and valves started to wave. 

“Whoa!” He jumped back. “All right. I’m sorry, but that’s just gross.”

The alien named Sorak moved slowly to stand in front of him and his head snapped shut before he spoke. “You are responsible for this.” He said as the floor shook beneath them. “You must make them stop.”

“Me?! I’m responsible?!”  He watched as the others talked amongst themselves. “What is wrong with you people?” He raised his hand, palm out. “You know, never mind.  I just want you to get us the hell out of here.”

“Why did you bring us here in the first place?” Aeryn’s voice came from behind them. She held the metal rod she had pulled from her bed earlier.

“Aeryn! I told you to…” All it took was her raised eyebrow. “Right. I’m glad you could make it darlin’.” He turned his attention to the alien in front of him. “Now where were we?”

She stepped further into the room. “They were about to tell us why they ruined the best day of my life.”

Now she was beside John and watching the aliens intently.  “Go on. We’re waiting.”

“We are the Lothra. We are here to protect our home world from invaders that would contaminate our world. You were intruders. We had no choice but to neutralize and bring you here. You have not been harmed.”

“The best?” The whispered question came from beside her.

“What?”

“You said it was the best day of your life.”

Aeryn went still and cut her eyes to him.   “This is not the best time.”

“Right. You’re right. Later.”

John looked at the alien in front of him. “So you don’t think we’ve been harmed huh? Well I have a head full of someone else’s memories that says you did something you shouldn’t have.” He poked a finger into a skeletal chest.

A loud explosion followed by florescent sparks followed.  The bright lights of the room died suddenly and then there was only the soft red glow of the emergency lights to see by.

Sorak spoke. "We apologize for any inconvenience that we have caused. But I think the matter is now moot. The complex has been contaminated and the shields mostly destroyed. It is only a matter of time before the pressure from the outside world crushes the remaining barriers.”

“Um…crushes?” John swallowed hard. “And then what?”

“And then we die."
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“I’m not seeing anything.”

D’Argo sighed.  “Patience, Chiana.  Almost all of their shields are gone. Once I knock out the small ones surrounding the outside edges of the complex it will all be over.”

She punched him lightly on the arm. “You’re a fine one to talk about patience. You couldn’t even wait for Noranti before you did that thing with, you know….what was left.”

“That was the sacred death ritual, Chiana. And I couldn’t have that witch doing something unholy, not to mention edible to John and Aeryn’s remains. Don’t worry. This will be over soon and they will be avenged.” He leaned close to her pale face and silently touched his forehead to hers. “I am glad you are here. It is strange to think we will never see them again.”

“I know.” She wrapped an arm around his neck and nuzzled his face.

“D’Argo?”

“Sometimes…sometimes I think I can even hear him.”

“D’Argo! Is that you blowing this place to bits? Come on man, you gotta stop!”

“Uh, D’Argo. I heard him too.” She drew back and their eyes grew wide as they looked at each other and then at the ships comm. 

“Frell me.”  Chiana’s eyes were wide and dark. “I think it’s...it’s...  Well, go on, answer him!”


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“John? John is that you?” D’Argo’s deep voice boomed through the room. God, it sounded good to hear him again. John hadn’t quite realized how much he’d missed him during their days apart.

“Hey, D! Yeah, it’s me.” A grin split his face.

“Yes. But how do I know it is really you and not some kind of trick?”

“Really me huh?”  He thought a moment, pacing. “Okay. You know that time when we were on Tarnak and you ran into that girl?”

“Uh, John.”

“And she recognized you so you had to…”

“John!”

“What?”

“That’s fine. I believe it is you.”

“What did he mean you ran into a girl?”

He could hear the thin echo of Chiana’s voice. “Good God! Is Chiana there too?”

“Yes. We are both here on Lo’La.”

“Yeah, and bombing the frell out of this place. You can quit now you know.”

“Indeed.”  He heard D’Argo give a huge sigh before giving his ship orders. “John, are you all right? And Aeryn?”

“We’re fine D’Argo. Just…f….” His voice trailed off. Was he fine?

“What is the matter?”

“Never mind. I’ll tell you when we get back. Right now we have to figure out how to fix the outer shields or this place is going to be one big swimming pool.” He walked a few more feet away from where Aeryn was peering down, trying to help the Lothra repair their equipment. “Hey, D’Argo,” he said in a low voice.

“Yes, John?”

“I’ve…I’ve missed you man.”
There was a pause.

“John? Are you sure you’re okay?”

“Sure. I’m….fine.  All right then.” John turned back and went to stand by Aeryn and unthinkingly slipped his arm around her waist in the comfortingly familiar way he knew.  She stilled for a microt and cut her eyes to him, but she didn’t move away.

“So what’s the problem?” John watched as long thin pincers pushed and prodded and clicked away at the array of controls in front of them.

Aeryn looked up. “The main circuit relays are failing. If the power drops below fifty percent…”

“Don’t tell me. The shields aren’t gonna hold Cap’n.” He bent closer to the control panel. “This is all gobbledegook.  It doesn’t make any sense.”

He turned to the spokesman of the group. “How long do we have until this thing bites the bullet?”

He stifled a sigh at the uncomprehending look.

“Gives up, breaks down, stops.”

“”We have approximately 30 microts before destabilization occurs. There must be a missing connection but we have been unable to find it.”

John moved away from Aeryn and circled the complicated mass of panels, wires and metal that was proving to be so stubborn and felt a moment of panic. They had to do something. And soon. So how do you fix something that refuses to be fixed?

“Gentleman, my lady.” He bowed. “I think we are forgetting the first basic rule of repair work.”

“Fifteen microts,” a scratchy voice in the background announced.

“What’s that?” Aeryn asked looking at him expectantly.

“This.”

He drew back an arm and gave the sides of the machine a direct hit, pounding until it rattled. Once. Twice. Three times.

Silence.

“Five microts.”

“Oh crap. D’Argo!!”
He grabbed Aeryn’s hand prepared to run, to find someway off this underground tomb.

He felt it before they could move. The vibration under his feet, the soft hum that started low and grew louder. With a crackle the lights reappeared, one after the other until the room was bright again. 

John found Aeryn looking at him with her eyebrow raised.

“Well, damn, that actually worked.” he said.  She shook her head, but then stopped suddenly and he was caught in the web of her eyes. Those beautiful, smoky blue eyes that turned into midnight when...

“John! What’s happening down there?” D’Argo’s voice out of the blue made him jump.

“Everything is good down here.”

“What do you want me to do? Can we fly down and pick you up?”

“Just hang on for microt. I need to find out a few things first. I’ll get back to you.” John turned to Sorak. “So Frank, how do we get out of here? Is there a back door to this place?” There was silence. “I mean it’s over now, right? You are going to let us go?”

Sorak made a gurgling sound that must have been a sigh.  “Contamination is complete. It is too late undo the damage. You are free to go.”

John glanced at where Aeryn stood, trying to hold a conversation with one of the still cowering aliens.  Seeing his chance he said quietly, “We have a problem, Frankie.  When you people sucked us into this mess with your mix master you scrambled me.  The me that I am now hasn’t existed for almost an cycle.  There were…are two of us.  This me died.  I don’t belong here with…” he glanced at Aeryn again, “just trust me, I don’t belong here.  This life and this body belong to someone else.” 

Sorak stared at John for a long moment then said, in a confused tone, “Let me understand, you wish to die?”

John glanced quickly at Aeryn to see if she’d heard that.  “Not so loud!” he hissed.  “No, I don’t ‘wish to die’.  I’m already dead.  This is someone else’s body.”

The alien looked…puzzled.  “This is quite unprecedented.  Are you sure about this?  I mean, is it possible that you’re confused?”

“No!” John snapped, striving to keep his voice down.  “I am not confused.  And I’m not me either.”

Sorak paused in thought for a minute.  “Without taking time to do a full system diagnostic I couldn’t even begin to guess how this has happened.  And I take it that you wouldn’t care to wait a weeken or two while I run one?”

John shook his head no…emphatically.

“Well then, the quickest solution that I can offer is running the process in reverse, using the data on you that’s in the pattern buffer from your first trip through the converter as a filter to control your rematerialization this time through.”

“Let me get this straight, you’re going to hit my reset button?”

Sorak was staring at him again. “That’s what I said, yes.”

John glanced at Aeryn again and sighed.  No matter how you looked at it, he was finally and forever frelled.  He looked back at Sorak.  “Okay Frankie, heat it up and let’s do it.”

“Are you certain..?”

“Yes, “John snarled, “I’m frelling certain.  Now let’s do it!” 

That finally got Aeryn’s attention.  When she walked over she was looking from one to the other, apparently trying to read what was going on.

Christ he hated this. “We need a few microts alone,” he said over his shoulder as he took her arm and lead her away from the room and down this corridor and that until they were blessedly alone.

He stopped and leaned his head back against the wall with his eyes closed. Fuck, fuck, fuck. 

Did she know that he couldn’t go anywhere?

He opened his eyes. Yeah, she knew.

He could tell by her face that she had known all along. He sank back further against the wall his head throbbing and his heart breaking. God, he wished he could stay. Oh, the body could, but whatever made him, him wasn’t going along for the ride.  He wasn’t supposed to be here. He’d had his chance and frelled it up and now it was the other guys turn. There was another man inside this body. The one they had left behind, the one who had gotten screwed.  Or not gotten screwed depending on how you looked at it. He’d been the one alone and without Aeryn all that time. And now he was the one Aeryn loved. It was this guy that Aeryn was going to marry.  He’d known even back then that it would be this way. What he hadn’t known was how much it would hurt to see it, have it spoken out loud.

And there was still so much he wanted to do with the woman standing here with him. So much he wanted to tell her. And, Oh God, a baby. 

“A baby.”

 He whispered the words, but she heard him and put a hand to her stomach automatically. 

She took his hand and pulled it to her abdomen that was still flat and smooth. “Our baby. Yours and mine.” She hesitated for a moment and then said with a determined look. “And his.”

And his. She was telling him something with those words.  But all he could hear was yours and mine. A baby. He was having a baby. Those long, frightening, desperate, glorious days on Talyn had made a baby. It’s what he had dreamed of for so long.  Someone to play catch with. Someone to sing to and to tickle. A piece of himself that would live after he was gone. That he could teach and love.

And he wouldn’t be here to see it. Any of it.  The thought crippled him. He wouldn’t know if it was a boy or a girl. He’d never see if his hair was brown or black, if her eyes were blue or hazel. His insides were cramping and he felt sick.  He slid down the side of the wall to sit hunched over his knees. Breathe John. You’ve got to breathe.

“John.”

He felt her hand smoothing through his hair, but he couldn’t speak. He remembered like it was yesterday when they were on the Royal Planet and he’d met his daughter for the first and only time. He remembered the clean fresh little girl smell of her. He felt her small body in his arms and the sweet innocent gaze of her eyes as she’d looked at him and said “I love you, Daddy”.  The pain of that had torn him in two, but now... now it was his and Aeryn’s child and he would never have the luxury of holding him or her in his arms even for an instant. Tears were wetting his face and he didn’t care.  He wanted to stay here with her. Wanted to love her and raise their child and grow old and god damn it all to hell it couldn’t happen. She wouldn’t forgive him if he found another way back to Moya, leaving his memories intact.  He didn’t know if he could live with himself.  But then he looked up and saw the tears traveling down Aeryn’s cheeks and he realized he wasn’t the only one hurting. God you’re a selfish bastard, John.

He pulled her down to him and she sat across his legs with her arms wrapped around his neck like she’d never let go. In that moment he might have said screw it and done the unthinkable and found a way to stay, but…

She had always made him better and she would again.

“Hey.” His voice cracked, but he said it with a smile.

It was a long time before he heard the small ‘hey’ against his ear.

His buried his face in her hair and his own voice was no more than a whisper. “You remember that I love you, don’t you?”

He felt her nod against his neck and he tightened his grip. He felt his shirt growing wet with her tears and knew he had to do something. It wasn’t right for her to go through this again. None of this was right.

“Aeryn.” She didn’t look up so he gave her a slight shake and gripped her forearms to break their connection. “Aeryn! Listen to me.” She was looking at him now and the pain came in a wave that he could barely hold back. He couldn’t afford to show it though.  There was too much at stake.

“Aeryn. You also know this is different don’t you?”

She cocked her head and sniffed. “What?”

“It’s not the same as before. This isn’t really me. I’m not dying and John is going to be with you when you open you’re eyes on the other side. This…me, is just some cosmic fluke, some game that let some memories of me through. I’m already gone. You know that.”

She sniffled again, wiped her nose with her sleeve and gave a shuddering laugh. “Yes. I know. I held  you in my arms and watched you go.” She gave him a weak smile. “I’m not sure I’ve forgiven you for that yet.”

“Yeah. I can be a bastard.”

That got a bigger smile and he knew this was the right thing to do.  God, he hated doing the right thing.

“I guess it’s time to go back and face the music,” he said.

He looked at the blank expression on her face. “Thank god, some things never change.” He gave her a quick kiss before he could stop himself.

They untangled slowly and stood up, but their eyes never left each other, each of them staring as if they could freeze the moment in time. He drank in every line and contour of her face, every strand of hair, every eyelash. He wanted to remember it all wherever he was going.   He broke the contact to wipe a sleeve over his face.  No sense in prolonging the agony. It was time.

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“So, we’ll beam up in about 300 microts. Is that good for you?”

“That’s fine John. We’ll be here.” D’Argo sat quietly until Chiana broke through his thoughts.

“Hey.” She punched him in the shoulder. “Watcha thinkin?”

“I’m thinking that even Noranti is never going to believe this.” He turned his head to smile at her leaning over his shoulder. “We were so sure…”

“Yeah, I know.  I guess Rygel is going to have to give it all back huh?”

“If he wants to live to reclaim his throne he will.”

“Hmm..,” Chiana murmured.

“What ?”

“I wonder what they’ve been doing down there all this time?”

“We’ll find out in approximately 100 microts.” D’Argo hesitated. “Um…Chiana.”

“Yeah?” She cocked her head.

“When they get here…do you think you could not tell them we got married?”

She grabbed his hair and pulled his head back to look at her.

“Why wouldn’t we want to tell them? Huh?”

“You know how competitive John is. I wouldn’t want him to think we stole his idea.”

“What do you mean we, you frellnick. It was your idea!”

He gave her a hard look.  He would have to work on her.

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Aeryn’s legs felt like dead weight as they carried her back the way they’d come, although she wasn’t sure why. They were going back to Moya and John would get his head straightened out; and he would lose all those false memories of another time, another life. It wasn’t him, she just had to keep reminding herself of that. It wasn’t a betrayal.  Everything was going to work out just fine and she would be happy. Frell it, she was happy. If only she could get it out of her mind that there was something not quite right with the whole picture.

The room was swarming with activity when they entered.  There were more Lothra than they’d yet seen so far moving back and forth, checking and examining equipment. The air was filled with clacking noises as they discussed the mechanics of getting the aliens back to their ship. Aeryn felt an unwelcome ripple of pain, but she thrust it ruthlessly aside. She owed this John her life, her heart. Her love.  The memories were an illusion that she could not afford and she wouldn’t let herself be torn in two again. Not again.

She felt him squeeze her hand as they moved towards Sorak, who was making finicky adjustments to an instrument panel.

“Are we gassed up and ready to go?” John spoke with his typical irreverence, but she knew him too well to be fooled. He wasn’t as unconcerned as he pretended.

“We know of nothing else to prepare John Crichton. It is as ready as we can make it. Please...” he motioned to a platform tucked in away in the corner. “…stand over there.”

He was looking at her and she couldn’t stop herself from looking back. He was smiling at her now, the pain she’d seen earlier seemingly gone. But she knew it was there inside him. He was looking after her yet again and for an instant the pain she felt made her lose her breath. She stumbled as she mounted the platform and he caught her close.  An opaque containment field came down around them, giving her a sense of being out of time and space. In their own world where nothing could touch them. She heard the sound of droning voices close by, reciting instructions and counting down. 

“Aeryn.”

His lips were just a breath away from hers.

“What?”

His hand reached up to lightly stroke over her cheek, her lips and she gave up the pretense that everything was just fine. Her tears, never far away, began to fall again.  “It’ll be all right Aeryn, I promise.”

Aeryn’s voice hitched as she said. “Frell you John Crichton.  It feels like you’re going to die on me again!” 

“Ssshhh. It’s okay. I’m not going to die,” he whispered holding her close.  “I love you, baby.  Don’t worry about me.  Like I said before…I’ve never felt better.”

Aeryn froze.  Those words. A long cold icicle flashed into being where Aeryn’s spine had been. In her mind she could see the room where he had died. She saw Stark easing his pain and walking away.  Those words.  They were his exact words, spoken as he died…..after Stark and his mask had left the room!  They weren’t in the mask.  No matter what had happened this John should have no memory of them, either consciously or unconsciously!  Wonder and horror battled in her heart as she pulled back so that she could study his face; see his eyes, look for the truth.  “John?”

From outside the containment field, rising over the murmur of alien voices, came Sorak’s voice.  “Initiate!”

Time was up and all she could do was wrap her arms around him and whisper “I love you too.”

There was a wrenching sensation and then there was darkness. 

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John woke up sprawled in Lo’La’s cramped aft section wrapped around Aeryn.  Well, he thought, whatever was happening it couldn’t be too bad. Then the sudden draft made his eyes widen. 

He heard a happy squeal and Chiana said, “It’s about frelling time!  Whatever they did took forever.  Are you two okay? Aside from being naked that is.  Do you want a blanket?  Of course you do, I’m such a welnitz….” Chiana’s frank gaze ran over the two of them coming to rest on John who quickly sat up.

“Whoa Pip!  Slow down, and take a breath,” John said as he stared about in confusion.  “Just what the hell happened?  Why are we on Lo’La?  The last thing that I remember is the boat, and….” Memory returned. “Oh Shit!”  He grabbed Aeryn’s left hand. “Aeryn! Are you okay?”  She was busy reassuring him when he noticed her bare hand.  His mother’s ring!  That frelling alien whatsis on the ship must have stolen his mother’s ring.  Someone was going to die!

“Looking for this?” D’Argo said, holding up the sparkling diamond ring between a thumb and a forefinger.

John reached out and took it.  “Where’d you get this?”

Trying to hide his relief, D’Argo laughed.  “From a pile of dust that we thought was your and Aeryn’s ashes.”  He pulled Lo’La into a high arc accelerating and gaining altitude.  “We’ll be on Moya soon. And the sooner this festering mud ball is behind us the better I’ll like it.”

“Okay, I sense a story,” John said.  “But it’s one that can wait.  I have unfinished business.”  He reached out to take Aeryn’s hand, to return the ring to its rightful place….and was surprised to meet resistance.  He looked up surprised, and a little afraid.  “Aeryn?”  She hadn’t said a word since they’d turned up here.  Not a word.  “Are you all right?”

She had a strange look on her face and she was staring at him, like she was searching for something and wasn’t finding it.  She had tears on her face, but then suddenly she was smiling and he melted like he always did.  She took the ring from his unresisting finger and firmly seated it on her finger.  “You already did that once, John.  It’s my job from now on.  I’m all right.”  She accepted a blanket from Chiana and pulled it around them both. “Do you…” She took a breath. “Do you remember anything?”

Christ, what did he remember? He thought for a microt. “The last thing I remember is you said you’d marry me.” He frowned suddenly. “You haven’t changed your mind have you?”

She shook her head, laughing through tears.

“So what happened? What should I remember?”

Aeryn brought her lips to his for a tender kiss. “I’ll tell you someday.” She wiped her tears away and there was nothing left but her smile. “For now, just remember me.”


The end


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